Ok, so I really am working out, I just seem to post all of my work outs on Sweat 365, which is an awesome workout community, but I need to get back to my Tri-Fly roots. I read a really great article today on Ironman.com about "Ironman Realities" it was amazing. It helped me to come to terms with my failure at Ironman in 2008. I had actually come to terms with not finishing, but it made me realize that there are a lot of people out there with a DNF behind their name that worked as hard as I did, maybe harder, most likely harder, and still didn't hear the the words "Jane Doe, you are an Ironman!". It also made me realize that just because one of my friends who is signed up for Ironman is a kick ass athlete, it doesn't guarantee a finish; I personally don't doubt for one minute that she will finish, she is just that kind of person, but as Lee Gruenfield says "toeing the start line at Ironman isn't an automatic ticket to a lifetime of bragging rights." Man, I hope that toeing the starting line TWICE will give me the ticket to a lifetime of bragging rights!
I am really excited about training this year and while I know there are going to be times when I REALLY don't want to get in the pool, and the bike trainer in my basement is going to get the best of me, and my treadmill is not going to make me happy, and my kids are going to want to watch The Princess Bride when I want to watch the Lord of the Rings while I am on a 3 hour ride...indoors...in January...it is a means to an end, and that end will be crossing the finish line and hearing the words "B Sue Fly you are an Ironman!" And when I fall into a puddle of tears while my husbands helps me compose myself, it will all be worth it because my daughters will remember me crossing the finish line and that will replace their memory of my not finishing and they will know that no matter how many times you fall, you can always pick yourself up, dust yourself off, probably cry a little and get on with it. Because what you visualize is not always the way it turns out, and you can always learn from it, come back stronger and more determined than ever to succeed!